The past few weeks have been challenging in the child-rearing area of life. Time with God has been lacking at stages when Asher doesn't want to sleep due to feeling sick in some capacity. Sleepless nights while he's up and down with baby measels(different from normal measels, who knew?!). Casey has needed time and energy from me in a different capacity than the 13 month old :) A few days ago, while Jeff was away I was feeling so sorry for myself and the lie that can easily creep in to the mind of any mother/wife living abroad started whispering in my ear..."it would be easier back home. You have your friends back home. You now how every thing works and operates back home. You are not as isolated back home...." and on and on they start to roll around in your mind. Can anyone identify here? The Holy Spirit is very gracious in these moments I find. He doesn't condemn me for the way I am feeling in the moment or tell me to suck it up and deal. He reminds me, lovingly and gently, of the Father's call on my life. He reminds me that Hudson Taylor, at the end of his life, said "I never made a sacrifice." Believe me, Hudson Taylor and his family made plenty of sacrifices. He reminds me that His Son made a great sacrifice, lived abroad and gave up all the comforts of home for something greater.
Ok, I think, the only way I am going to get past this moment then is with the power of the Holy Spirit carrying me through the hardest moments ahead, the next moment and the one after that. I found this article by Christine Hoover, on Desiring God very timely and helpful as a young mother. I hope other moms and wives and single women who have sacrificed much in this life, find it helpful as well. Happy Saturday.
The Everyday Question of Motherhood
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